How could I not fall for that?
yes. for some people, their nipples get more sensitive when they get them pierced so that’s something you could consider. you could also try something like this and see if that makes a difference. but otherwise, just focus on the parts of your body that do respond to his/your touch.
please let me know if you don’t understand something i say. i’ll try my best.
you can’t control it, but i don’t think it’s fair to you or your boyfriend to be thinking of someone else during sex. you’re not a bad person because of it and you’re not a bad girlfriend for not wanting sex. it sounds like the passion has gone away. if you’re just not attracted to him, you should probably end the relationship because that is important. if it’s that you’re bored, try the tips to spice up your sex life in the FAQ. physical attraction isn’t everything, but it is important and it wouldn’t be good for either of you to stay together if that’s no longer there.
please don’t go back to him, love. i suspect that deep down, you already know that this relationship isn’t what’s best for you. the positive memories and the attachment you feel to him can be what keeps you coming back, but that doesn’t take away from his abusive behavior. you can and will do without him. you’ll thrive and be the person you’re meant to be without being controlled or manipulated or abused. you deserve that happiness that you’re not getting in this relationship. here is a great resource for abusive relationships.
you need to tell him this, love, and let him know what your boundaries are. this shouldn’t be a surprise if this is something you discussed in the beginning of your relationship. if he continues to push the issue, he isn’t respecting your right to say no and i honestly would end the relationship for that. if he doesn’t want to wait, then you’ll know he’s not the person for you, as painful as that is. stick to what you feel is best for you and when you are ready to have sex, you won’t regret waiting.
yes, different guys will have different amounts. if he ejaculates frequently, he’ll probably have less ejaculate than someone who does it less often so that may have been why.